When Life Breaks You Down: Finding Faith, Flow, and Financial Alignment
Hello, and welcome to the very first full-length episode of The Wholeself Podcast™.
I’m Annette Marie—and I’m truly honored you’re here.
This space is about deep, lasting transformation—not just mindset work, but the healing of your entire being: body, mind, spirit, and soul.
So take a breath, get comfortable, and let’s begin this journey together.
How This Podcast—and My Blueprint—Came to Be
Not long ago, I felt a quiet stirring in my spirit. A nudge that wouldn’t go away.
It wasn’t something I planned or even knew how to fully explain.
But it came with clarity:
“Write the Sacred Wealth Blueprint™.”
Now, teaching about money mindset or energetic alignment around finances wasn’t new to me. I’ve coached people for years on releasing trauma, healing their nervous systems, and rebuilding self-worth.
But this was different.
This wasn’t just about mindset.
This was about God.
It was about anchoring money and manifestation in spiritual truth.
To be honest, it scared me.
Not because I didn’t believe in God—I always have.
But because I’d kept that faith quiet. Safe. Private.
I didn’t want to offend, alienate, or be “too much.”
But something in me knew:
If I was going to write about abundance, I had to write it through the lens of divine provision.
The Lessons Started Immediately
I started writing.
And almost instantly, everything around me began to unravel.
First, our washer and dryer broke.
Then, the main water valves to our house rusted out.
A few days later, the pool pipes started leaking—then the pool cleaner completely died.
I paused my writing.
Because now we were taking multiple unexpected financial hits.
It triggered every old belief I’d carried since childhood about money being hard, unsafe, and scarce.
Then the unthinkable happened.
My beloved horse—my soul companion—suddenly went into acute kidney failure and passed.
I was wrecked.
And it still wasn’t over.
Four days later, we discovered a leak under our home’s slab foundation.
And on the morning the foundation team arrived to repair it, I walked into the kitchen and found the refrigerator had stopped working. All our food was spoiling.
I sat on the floor and sobbed.
No… I broke.
I cried out like a child having a meltdown in the middle of a grocery store aisle:
“What did I do to deserve this?”
“Why are you punishing me?”
“How much more do you expect me to take?”
And then, when the tears dried, I got quiet.
Still.
Empty.
I took a breath. And I asked a better question:
“God… what am I missing?”
And in that stillness, I heard one word:
“Flow.”
The Whisper Beneath the Water
At first, I didn’t get it.
But then I realized—almost everything that had broken involved water.
Flow. Pipes. Plumbing. Drainage. Movement.
Even the tears.
And I remembered what I heard when I first started writing:
“How can you write about Me if you do not know Me?”
That hit different now.
Then this verse dropped into my heart—Isaiah 43:2:
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.”
I had been fighting the current.
Trying to build something from my own strength.
Forcing productivity.
White-knuckling trust.
Clinging to old patterns rooted in trauma, control, and the belief that I had to fix everything.
But this workbook wasn’t mine.
It was His.
It was never meant to be pushed through with hustle—it was meant to flow through me with grace.
The Realization
For most of my life, I associated money with fear, lack, stress, and survival.
It wasn’t just about bank balances.
It was nervous system deep. Generational deep.
Inherited beliefs, shame, scarcity, and self-worth entangled.
And in the breaking, I was being asked to unlearn it all.
To stop swimming upstream.
To stop clinging.
To surrender.
God was saying:
“Your provision is not in your control.
Your provision is in Me.
Lay it down. Let Me lead.”
He wasn’t absent in the chaos—He was present in the water.
Calling me back to alignment.
Back to flow.
Back to trust.
And this workbook—The Sacred Wealth Blueprint™—was never just about helping others.
It was asking me to live what I was teaching.
To release what had once protected me.
To let faith replace force.
A Soul Check-In
So now I ask you:
Where in your life have you been swimming against the current?
Is it your finances?
Your relationship?
A career path you’re gripping with both hands?
Where are you being invited to release the fight—not as punishment, but as preparation for divine provision?
Where have you been striving in survival… instead of receiving from surrender?
Practical Ways to Reconnect with Flow
Here are five ways to begin shifting from force to flow—from fear to faith:
1. Practice Surrender
Pause the urge to fix.
Notice when you’re pushing too hard.
Ask yourself: Am I trying to force what God wants to give in grace?
2. Engage in Spiritual Reflection
Journal about where you're resisting.
Ask: “What am I clinging to that God is asking me to release?”
Spend quiet time listening—not just speaking—in prayer or meditation.
3. Reframe the Hard Stuff
See your challenges as invitations, not punishments.
Every breakdown might be an initiation into breakthrough.
Trust that what feels like loss could be divine redirection.
4. Align Your Nervous System
Learn to feel safe in your body again.
Use tools like breathwork, tapping, or somatic practices.
Remember: alignment isn’t a mindset—it’s a state of being.
5. Stay Open to Ongoing Transformation
Be willing to pivot when you’re being called higher.
Let your spiritual journey evolve.
Stay humble, curious, and available for grace.
A Final Invitation
If something in this episode spoke to your soul, and you're ready to move from survival into sacred alignment—I invite you to explore the Sacred Wealth Blueprint™.
It’s a 6-part journey designed to recalibrate your nervous system, reconnect your spirit to divine truth, and help you receive the provision that has always been your birthright.
It’s not a workbook.
It’s a spiritual reawakening.
And it was written—for such a time as this.
Thank you for being here.
We’ve only just begun.
With love and in flow,
Annette Marie
